Let us be truthful

(Aarons dictionary)
Truthful; 1) Honest, expressing truth, 2) To eat so much truth, that your belly is filled with it.
A) "I am honestly and truthfully explaining the definition of truthful"
B) "I ate so much freaking truth that its spewing out of my ears!"

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Ok, I think we should have a national holiday for cynical people. Instead of laughing at there sarcasm, we could take it and backfire it onto them! But instead of being cynical back to them, we could just take there cynicism seriously. It would be really fun, but wars would probably break out all over the world and that wouldn't be nice, so shame on me.

Over these last few months I hit some bumps in the road that have caused me to slow down. Since we're on the subject of truth lets talk about pride. "Me pride! You and I both know I don't have pride! IM SUPERHUMAN!!!"
The conversation actually didn't go like that... But the funny thing is that person actually thinks there some sort of superhuman... I tell you people watch way to much TV. You can't blame them really, I mean what else is there to do?
"Kayak?"  "Meh." "Swim with sea turtles?" "Nah." "Make memories with your friends?" "Yes bro! I've seen every episode of Friends"
"Did you watch it back in the day or on Net Flix because there is a difference..."
No bro, freaking tivo that shiz.
"Oh, so you want to go get coffee or somthing?"
"Nah I'm gonna hop on facebook"
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On a serious note

I like to get naked and go swimming. One thing that is for certain is I wouldn't do it with a female unless I was married to her. I would get naked and go swimming with my dude friends but they think I'm weird so I just go off alone and get naked. Whats cool about that it is its all very symbolic. I walk in a conversation with God. I walk until I think I find or God points out the perfect swimming hole. And as I get naked I start to repent of all the sins I have committed. I get in the water (which is usually very cold) and I dunk my body in. As I'm underwater I picture my body and all of who I am being washed clean. Becoming spotless. Depending on how cold it is I try to linger in the water and I go into a deeper meditation of peace. Given the circumstances if I am genuine. I leave the forest clean.
Yesterday I jumped into a hot spring, naked of coarse and because you float in that water a lot easier than fresh water I was going through a breathing cycle. My body would bob up and down as I would inhale and exhale. The warm water and pressure on my chest as I would breathe made me think about much I take breathing for granted. The tenseness of my body on the slimy algae made me think of how much I try to control my life. As I stopped the fight of control I let my body float where ever it was taken.  I let go of my grasp of controlling my body, I also let go of the grasp of controlling my life and my thoughts and my mind. As I let go I heard God tell me. "Hold your breath" and My body turned ever so slightly in the water until my face was in the water and I couldn't breathe. My body floated into a wall of rock and I can feel the algae touching my head and my face. It was then as I was holding my breath I felt at peace. It felt like minutes passed and I thought about my friends dream were Jesus dunked her underwater until she figured out she could breathe. I heard God tell me to exhale and I pushed out all the air in my lungs. I stood up immediately and grabbed my clothes takeing huge breaths. I walked with them in my hands. I looked at the water rushing through through two rocks and God told me to jump to cross it. I looked at it and threw my clothes to the other side. Then I said "God give me stregnth!" and took a giant leap of faith across a rushing waterfall. It was on the other side where I laid out on a rock like a nudist. I started to wonder if I was a nudist. Then I started thinking about how there must be different types of nudist because I'm not gonna go start a nudist colony or join one because I think thats weird. I just like to be naked...in the woods. No big deal right?
Let us be truthful and honest. Is it weird to be naked though at peace with oneself in our natural environment, than to be clothed with clothes that we put our identity in? I suppose its all different for role of the truth seeker than the person who is seeking only comfort.
-Aaron

Did you know?

I've been living with people from my everyday waking life for about 8 months now. Meaning I go to sleep listening to someone snore, breathe and fart and I wake up to the same noises and aromas. I don't think I'm complaining, but I think it's difficult living with other people sharing the same personal space. Most of the time when I look forward to being alone I think, YES! I'm gonna write and play guitar and piano and do whatever I want. The truth is I just get lonely and think about doing other things. Like climbing and kayaking or jumping off cliffs. Earlier this winter I had an awesome moment of feeling alive. My buddy came back from his hometown and pulls up outside my house. He ask after we greeted each other "So what do you want to do?" Grabbing two pairs of swimming trunks I said "Lets make some memories" I told him where to drive and we pull up to Lewis Creek, this place where I boulder. It has some amazing sights and waterfalls that crash onto rocks below. We got out of his car and stomped through the 3 feet of snow and after a short hike we were at the bottom of this massive waterfall. Ice cold mist is soaking our clothes and we change into our trunks and charge into the ice cold water. After being submerged into the water and some man yelps we jumped out. Later that night we went to the bar had some drinks and I told him about God, and forgiveness. He cried and memories were made.  Thats how I want all my memories to be. A God given adventure or sorts, times where the inner man can be submerged and brought back to life with a screaming yelp. Then to end the memory with a word.

All the guys that I have lived with over the last eight months I had to forgive and had to ask for forgiveness. Its not easy living with other people. Where all different and taught to live differently. Some of us feel are more masculine than others some more feminine. Some more daring and some more caring. What Im saying is one day I'm going to be able look back and remember how much I was annoyed with people I lived with and laugh, remembering how much I learned while I was living with them and how I learned to love them. Times right now ARE hard. I'm constantly asking myself, Should I go do EARS or go get lost in the woods and climb all summer. I'm still leaning towards EARS (EARS is a school for Ecology and Resource Stewardship) and it would have to take a vision and a word of God to tell me not to go. 

A good look'n at friends

Blessings, blessings, blessings. Life is good, life is awesome! Holy spirit comes in, we rock San Francisco, Drives home, pray, write, pray.. SLEEP!!! BAM, SIN!!!$^%&* Wall, "Where am I, who am I?" "Oh yeah God!!! ok lets try it again.
 Wakes up... Sabbath? No I gotta help my family move...
And now recovery.
My last weeks have been amazing, experiencing freedoms in my soul that I never thought existed. Making room for the holy spirit to dwell could of neva been betta. And I am changed, eternally free as long as I remember the king who has died for me. So why is there is a Spirit of tiredness over me, maybe I just need to drink this un-sipped tea thats been siting in front of me for the last 30 minutes. I like to think I don't need it... Ok so I just gulped the entire thing down and while I was gulping it I remember this prayer I prayed a couple of weeks ago. I prayed that God would show me how to treat every girl as my sister. To give me a developed understanding of what it means to have and how to treat sisters. See I was born in a family with three boys and when I went through school I had awesome friends that were girls, some I would call my sisters. And it was awesome, until they give you a letter and walk off all fast and as you read the letter it talks about how very much they are in love with you. So you think to yourself "that was out of left field, guess I need to watch how I spend my time with these 'sisters'" And by watching how I spent my time with them, I would just stop all relationships, because I didn't want to be breakin no hearts. And thats how I lived. So when I would actually be around a girl, whom I was attracted to there was no real friendship there so I probably just turned out creepy. That sucks. And this went on and on and on until I said "NO MOSE!" Couldn't handle the heartbreak I was getting into. Then I didn't have an awesome excuse like "God told me to be single." I was truly hurt because all the relationships I had I wanted them to be real, real love, real friendship. However there was nothing real about it. They weren't real friendships and therefore fake love(lust)... Then I would of traded all those lust filled relationships for just a couple of my "Platonic sister friend relationships" but time goes on and like my momma always says "Whats done, is done."
So here I am, I've been working on that whole sister is Christ thing and it's been awesome. I move on though the attraction I am drawn towards. I pray it off. I thank God for being there always ready to listen. Because now I seek God, I seek god as much as I can and I am convicted I need to seek him harder. But all along I seek him I find myself opening up making friends both male and female. I'm convinced Jesus never tried to make friends, I think people were just attracted to Him for the pure joy of being around him. As Christians we should be the same way, not seeking friends, but God. Friends will come along the journey and by friends I mean brothers and sisters.