Ask
a question, then give it up. No use pondering it because it will show it self
in time. I move on, and find
myself, in a quiet room, over looking this lake. It feels so wrong to have it
all to myself. I want the rest of the world to know, that I am here. Though in
the silence, I am left with the trees looking down at me from the mountains. I
am humbled to know, how small I really am.
For
years, now I have wanted to be here. Though never did I realize why. Following
my dream, as the fool I am. Here I sit, restless, tired, wanting to not want.
Yet, my head wants to leave, though I tell myself to stay. Why am I here?
There’s more to this than just my own desires, "We're here to learn"
though its hard to say, what I am being taught. I can get caught up, in routine.
Life was easier, when I had routine. What's there to learn in this
silence?
I
think about things as things are, seeing reality for what it is, and it makes
me laugh. My body aches, my eyes, tired. My head is full of places to go, and a
foreign woman to love, but I don't want them, for the sake of good food and a beautiful woman. No, I am stronger than I ever been, my hands don't betray me, as
they used to. I am stronger, and healthier now. Though, everyday and every
night, I think of the one, whom I am to protect, though, she is not here,
nor there. She is only in my head, maybe. I am a fool for wanting her, yes a
fool, because she is not here. I am love, and my eyes show it. I am eager to
learn, and don't care who knows it. It shows itself, because I am aware that, I
know nothing.
I am
a warrior, who is eager to fight, a murderer of dragons who dare to bite.
I'll stay here, and move on when they are all dead. My path is illuminated
through the days and through the long nights. I'm a dreamer of dreams, and no one
can really understand what that means. Maybe it really is all just universal
connectivity. I’m grounded, and secure, as my path narrows, my heart loves me
more, and takes me through the worst of dangers. I overcome, because of my
might, though it is not because of I. No, it is through the breath that lives
inside, and that refines my soul, this breath I hold onto, until its time for
me go. Even then, I am, sure of nothing. Maybe, because this world of late,
says people like that are just crazy. Though, I am strong, and independent,
without brothers and sisters we could never ascend it. I'm a reacher, a be'er,
an illuminated seeker. I hold fast and I am faithful, even when they are
doubtful. I am not dogmatic, or stagnant, truth seeking, I am always at it. I
am like a Jedi, who says press onto the light. This power is good and I use
it for right. I’ve learned, that people who judge you, have too much time to
think, I am the MVP, when it comes to the power to just be. Because I know,
that’s where we should be, in the moment, you and me.
